Hey guys! Welcome back. I hope you are doing well. If you’re new here hello! My name is Samantha and I am so glad you are here. Be sure to follow me to stay up to date. If you don’t have a blog you can follow my social media where my posts are automatically uploaded every time I post. And with that being said, let’s get started.
If you are reading this and you haven’t read any of my other posts there is probably a reason. So I want to start by saying the title of this is “It Gets Better”. That’s not a strategy or my way of getting your attention. I mean it with all of my heart. So if you are struggling with something or you feel down or blue, keep reading. It gets better. And if you are a follower and just like reading what I write, also keep reading because this may help you at some point even if it doesn’t necessarily apply to you right this instant.
I didn’t have the best childhood. I had abusive parents, no money, no real friends, and depression out of this world. I can’t say I had the worst childhood because I had food, a place to live, and basic necessities. But the one thing I didn’t have is love. My mother didn’t, and still doesn’t, love me. And that is a hard pill to swallow.
She tried on several occasions to ruin my life. And she never tried to hide it. She denied it saying she was doing what was best for me, but I knew it was all a lie. She put on a face and let the world see a different version of her. But I knew the truth. I knew the scary side. And that sucked because as a girl, growing up in today’s society, a girl needs her mom. And mine wasn’t there or didn’t care when she was. And I think that is why I have the mentality of who cares? Who cares if I’m here or not? Who cares what I have to say? What’s the point in doing all this? Am I wasting my time?
I’ve learned not to let that get to me and not to let it stop me. I want to live my life and do the very best I can with what God has given me. He has given me just enough to do what I am meant to do and I trust Him. I know without a doubt that things will work out.
And that is why I can sit here and tell you, it gets better. Whether you believe it right now or not, it really does get better. One day you will wake up and you will be in a different place, doing different things with different people. One day it will all be worth it. Every struggle, every trial, every test, every heart break, every loss, every moment that you feel like the world is crashing down. It gets better. That moment when you feel like your life is over and you can’t take one more second of the pain and torture, it gets better. Believe me. I’ve been there. I know what it’s like to be so afraid of your own thoughts and emotions that you want it to end. The pain so real that you would rather die than spend one more second feeling the way you do. It’s real. Your emotions are valid and you don’t have to justify them to anyone. Just understand that this is only the end if you let it be.
It does get better. It doesn’t get perfect though. There will never come a day when everything magically goes your way. You will still face these challenges. But it won’t always be bad and it won’t always be hard. You will grow and become stronger and realize that you are worthy of being here just as much as everyone else. So don’t give up now. Keep fighting because your life is important and you’re the only one that can live it.
Thank you so much for reading. I hope this helps at least one person. Don’t forget to like and follow before you leave and I will see you next time.