Hey guys! Welcome back. Lately I have been feeling very distant from God. I know it’s my fault and it’s something I need to start prioritizing, but these past few days I have been thinking about the things that are happening in my life. There are some personal things that I can’t fully share with the internet right now, but they are things that have been affecting me a great deal.
I have been struggling with where I am and what I am doing. My emotions are all over the place and I’m just always in pain. I am running out of options when it comes to certain situations and honestly I don’t know what my next step is. But one thing I am sure of is that I have to get back to my relationship with God. That’s the most important thing. Without Him I am weak. Without Him I cannot truly be my best self.
So I have decided to go back to living my life the way I was before all of this started. I am going to go back to ignoring what I think is best and what I want. I am going to start praying for guidance and following what God wants me to do. That is where I get the best results in life. That is when I am at my best. Whatever He tells me to do is what I am going to do. I can’t question it anymore. I can’t keep pushing it away even though it might be difficult or scary. It’s the right thing to do.
I do my best, but so often that is not enough. I give people so much, but it’s not what they want. I try to do everything and still it seems like I do nothing. But one thing I have learned is that if it’s not alright, it’s not the end. Until I find my place I won’t stop searching. Until I find myself I won’t give up. It’s not perfect and it’s certainly not easy, but for now this is my life and God has control. So I trust that it’s going to turn out the best it possibly can.