Hey guys! Welcome back. There have been recent events in my life that have caused me to reflect and try to understand the reality of every situation. It hasn’t been easy, but it’s been what I needed. One thing I have learned from it all is the best is truly yet to come. I haven’t been feeling the best for a few weeks now and as much as I try to power through, I know that right now I just have to deal with it all.
The truth is, my biggest fear is disappointing people. Many people have hurt me and disappointed me and I never want anyone to feel the way I do. But I also know that in times like this I have to do what is best for me. I have to do what is going to make me happy. That doesn’t mean there won’t be bumps along the way and I won’t still struggle, it just means that I will be struggling with a purpose. Right now I don’t feel as though that purpose is there. Up until Sunday, I felt completely lost.
I kept asking God what He wanted me to do. I was asking me to give me some clarity and some answers. Then I realized it had been right in front of me the entire time. My decision has not been an easy one and I know it will be unpopular. But I know in my heart that this is the best thing for me. It always has been. I know that this decision may hurt some people and might even make them angry, especially when they hear my reasoning for doing what I am doing. But that’s okay. The right people will stand by me and my decision.
My hope is that I finally begin to start trusting myself and my journey again. I can no longer believe that I am not strong enough, smart enough, good enough, or worthy enough to live the life and be the person that makes me happy. I feel like I deserve that much. I have been hurt too many times in my life to not allow myself to finally break free from it all and allow myself to be happy. I have to know that I do know what is best for me despite what everyone else thinks.
At the end of the day, these are tough decisions to make, but they are mine to make. It won’t be an easy process, but I know in the end, it will all be right again. I look forward to what is coming in the future and seeing what comes. Because I do believe that the best is truly yet come. I hope that when I do decide to share these decisions that it goes better than I hope it will. I know that there may be some disappointed people, but that’s okay. It will all hopefully work out.
I hope that if you are struggling with something or needing to make some difficult decisions, that you learn to trust yourself and follow your heart. Because you deserve that. No matter where you are in your journey, I hope you find peace and hope and that you learn to be the person you were designed to be. Because you are what the world needs in your own unique way.
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