Hey guys! Welcome back. Today I am going to share something unlike anything I have ever shared before. This is something that I have battled with sharing for a while because it’s not something that I am proud of. But I wanted to be more personal here on the blog and I decided that this is something that I needed to share. Not just to help myself, but also to help anyone else who may be struggling.
My journey with binge eating began when I was a teenager. I was really depressed and living a pretty broken lifestyle. Food was something that just tasted really good and it was the one solid thing that I had in my life. So I started eating…a lot. I’m an emotional person which turned into being an emotional eater. I would eat when I was sad, anxious, happy, and any other emotion that doesn’t make my stomach turn into a rock.
I can remember coming home and eating what I could. From everything going on at home to coming home to the mess that I was facing, things were really difficult. I was struggling in ways that I couldn’t understand or recognize. The only thing that was always a constant was the food that I was eating. And so I ate. I ate when I could because it was the only good thing that I had going for me.
And naturally, I gained a lot of weight. It was really sad for me and I hated it, but it had happened. And what was worse is, I couldn’t stop. I tried but whenever the feelings would come back I would go right back to what I was doing. I was so ashamed that I couldn’t talk to anyone about it. I was fighting this battle on my own and it just made things worse.
I can’t say exactly when I started to make a shift, but it was somewhere after I started college. Once the depression was under control, so was the binge eating. Once I started being happier and more confident I started being able to control myself a lot more. It has never been a perfect journey, but it has improved a lot. I don’t blame anyone for this challenge that I have faced because I knew it was a part of my story. I know that going through it and overcoming it was just another chapter.
I didn’t realize that binge eating was an eating disorder until I got to college and started talking to people who were struggling with it too. Once I figured out that I wasn’t alone, I started making progress. My journey is not over and I am still a work in progress, but I knew that I had to share this part of my story because I want others to realize that they are not alone.
If you are struggling with binge eating, or any other eating disorder, I encourage you to seek help. It has changed my life. I educated myself and worked to start overcoming this disease that took over my life. I hope you can also find the strength and encouragement to fight back and take back control of your life.