Hey guys! Welcome back. As many of you know, I have opened up about my mental health struggles and suicidal thoughts in the past. And today I wanted to share everything I would have missed if I had done so. Hopefully this will help or inspire anyone who may be struggling with this or anything else. If nothing else, it will give you a little insight into my life.
1. I get to share my voice.
One of the greatest things that came from me choosing not to is starting my blog. I started this blog two years to the day after I almost did it. And it has been an amazing journey getting to share this with all of you and getting to share my story. It is such a blessing and I can’t wait to keep growing.
2. I fell in love.
I fell in love in more ways than one, but now I am getting married. And I would have missed that if I had died. I would have missed the chance to meet the person who loves me beyond all else and for me that is a big deal. I have never had a chance to experience a love like that before.
3. Meeting my sister.
There is no doubt that my sister is one of the biggest blessings in my life. And she didn’t come around until nearly a year after I almost died. She is one of my best friends and I couldn’t imagine life without her. So naturally she is one of the biggest things that I would have missed out on.
4. I’ve made a few small dreams come true.
Even during the darkest moments of my life, I had dreams. And since then, I have made some of those dreams come true. I am getting married. I get to be a Resident Assistant. I made lifelong friends. I am going to graduate from college. All of these are dreams I never thought would happen.
5. I have made friends who love me unconditionally.
Before college I had never really felt any kind of unconditional love. It’s always been more conditional than anything. So finding friends that love me and really do want the best for me has completely changed my life. They have shown me my value and worth and given me the hope that I needed to keep doing what I’m doing.
6. I made it to see days I never thought I would see.
Making it to those days reminds me of everything I could have lost. All the days I had been looking forward to. My first day of college, my 21st birthday, my engagement. All days that I had looked forward to for so long. It’s crazy to think that I almost missed out on those days.
7. I’ve met people that changed my life.
My friends are included in this. They have definitely changed my life. But also teachers, mentors, and more who keep me going. They motivate me and encourage me to keep following my dreams. They continue to push me and help me see my worth and value. They truly have changed my life.
8. I get to see what the future holds.
My life right now looks nothing like what I thought it would when I was 17. And I know the future will be different than what I thought then or what I think now. So if I had died, I would have missed out on so much more than I ever imagined. And thankfully I get to experience it all now.
9. The chance to help others.
My biggest goal in life is to use what I have gone through to help other people. It is a huge passion of mine. But if I had died, I probably wouldn’t have the opportunity to help others and show them that life is bigger than what they are going through. And that is one reason why I am so thankful for this platform.
10. Learning my value as a person.
It’s no secret that before I considered suicide I didn’t believe that I had any value or worth. So after all those years of not feeling like I had any, it’s great to know that I am figuring it out. I am learning about myself and learning that my life does have a purpose and I should use that.
Thank you so much for stopping by! I hope you enjoyed this. Please like it if you did. Let us know in the comments why you are happy to be alive. Don’t forget to follow before you leave if you have not already and I hope you stop by for the next post!