Hey guys! Welcome back. Today I just wanted to share another life update. This is a big one and much more difficult one to share than I have in the past. But I think it’s important and I ultimately felt compelled to share it with all of you. If I am being completely honest, I am struggling. My life is so much different than it was a year ago or even six months ago. I have fallen in love, got engaged, and shared it with so many people. And though I love it and I am so happy, I am also not happy at the same time. And at this time, I’m not sure if I can share everything that is going on.

I have questioned myself so many times in the past few weeks. I have struggled with understanding how I feel and being transparent with my decisions and everything I am thinking. I have tried my hardest to have hope and trust that God knows what is best for me. But I also know that sometimes I don’t really understand what He is trying to tell me. I have struggled with having conversations about life, the future, and so much more. I am struggling with figuring out how my life will work out in a few short months.

I am grateful for the people who have been by my side from the beginning. I am grateful for the people who continue to stand with me even my life is an absolute mess. I feel guilty because I am not able to keep up with each one of them because I can barely keep up with everything that is going on in my life right now. I am not complaining because I know that everything that has happened this year has been an absolute blessing. I have learned and grown so much. I am becoming the person I needed when I was 15 and for that I am eternally grateful.

I have so many blessings to be thankful for. However, this is all completely new to me. It has been hard to process all that has been going on. And I know that in the end everything will work out the way it needs to. I know that I have all the love and support I could ever ask for. But I felt the need to write this. I felt the need to express that I am human and I am overwhelmed. I wanted to remind you all that it’s okay. Life is a strange thing because you can be completely happy and completely overwhelmed simultaneously. I know that sometimes I feel strong and weak at the same time. But I am not the same person I was a year ago. I have grown into a much better version of myself and that is all I could ever ask for.

I want to thank you all for your continued support and encouragement. I get to do this everyday because of all of you and I wouldn’t be able to without you. So I want you to know that even though sometimes we struggle, there is strength to push through. I love you all so much and I can’t believe that I get to continue to go down this path for the time to come. I can’t wait to see where this journey takes us, regardless of where it goes.

One thought on “Trying To Adult…Life Update

  1. Thank you for the encouraging message. It’s been more than two months since you posted this so I hope things are going better! And you’re right, it’s completely possible to be both overwhelmed and happy. Keep on keeping on!

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