Hey guys! Welcome back. I hope you are enjoying what is left of your weekend. I had zero intentions of doing this today, but I feel the need to get this out in the open. It’s definitely not easy, but I think it is really important to let you all know what has been going on. I haven’t really talked about it on social media and I don’t intend to, but I am not engaged anymore. There were a lot of reasons for this and I won’t go into any details, but I will share some of the more vague reasons why this happened.
It started when I had a gut feeling that it just wasn’t right. I started thinking about a lot of things and I just knew that this wasn’t it for me. Things kept happening and I started feeling really uncomfortable and starting a life in the way that I was. I intend to married for one person forever, and the idea of this being it worried me a lot. It wasn’t just cold feet, it was the fact that I just knew this wasn’t the relationship for me.
There were a lot of people in my life that didn’t approve of the relationship. They saw red flags that I didn’t even see. There were a lot of people that didn’t understand why I was marrying the person I was choosing to marry. And at the end of the day I realized that I was justifying a lot of things that didn’t even make sense to me. I was struggling to understand all the things that were and weren’t happening. So in the end, I knew it was best to just let go.
There were some secrets that started coming up and some things I was being told that I just couldn’t have peace about. I wasn’t comfortable and I didn’t feel safe in the relationship anymore. I wasn’t okay with a lot of the things that were coming up and I started thinking it may be time to get out while I still can. So I decided the best way for me to have peace is to just let go. I decided that it’s just not the right time for me. I don’t know when the time will come, but it wasn’t right now with this person.
It has been really difficult, however, I am dealing with it. I have a really great support system around me that have helped me not only find the strength to get out of the relationship, but that also have helped me work through the post-breakup side of things. I have cut off communication because I know how easy it is to fall into the trap of still having any kind of relationship after the breakup. I have learned that for me to let go I have to let go completely.
I have accepted all that has happened and I am incredibly lucky to know that I have plenty of love around me. Right now I am focusing on taking care of myself and living my life. I am getting to a better place and becoming a better version of myself. So hopefully the next relationship I have will go more smoothly and I will be content with who I am as a person.
I hope you all understand. Thank you for being with me on this journey. As this chapter comes to an end, I hope to be able to pour myself into bigger and better things. Thank you for your unending support and I will see you next time!