Why I Had To End My Relationship

Hey guys! Welcome back. So today I wanted to do something that I was honestly really scared to do for quite a while. Today I am going to share what went wrong in my previous relationship and why I felt I had to end it. I know from previous experience that not everyone loves when I get on here and talk about my relationships and why the ended, but that is a small majority. Others who have been asking about my relationship deserve an answer and an explanation.

I held off on talking about for over a month because I just wasn’t ready to talk about it. I wanted to make sure that I handled the situation delicately and that I had a good hold on what I needed and wanted to say. So with that, I am going to dive into why I decided to end my relationship and what happened. I won’t be including too many super personal details because some things are better left private, but I did want to share some of the things that led to the end.

My last boyfriend and I were together for right around six months. But for those last two months we weren’t really together. And sure, quarantine had a lot to do with that, but there was more to it than just that. What was once a very happy and loving relationship turned quite sour and left a bitter taste in my mouth. I just wasn’t happy. Things started to change. It started with little things and then with the blink of an eye things got even worse. I saw the end coming.

We talked for about a month before we actually met. And all was great. We went on dates and had fun. We bonded over similar interests. I got to know him and his past and he got to know mine. We quickly grew very fond of one another and I can honestly say that I was really happy. I was content in this relationship and I wanted to see it grow and flourish. But there were some issues and some of them were mine.

So what really happened? Well around the end of March and beginning of April there started to be some issues that kept coming up. One of those being that I am not great at communication and being super open. And even though I spent a lot of time working on it and trying to get better, at the end of the day it just wasn’t enough. And towards the end of the relationship I realized that the reason I wasn’t able to fully open up is because I just didn’t feel comfortable enough with him to be vulnerable.

The reason for that is because he often made me feel a certain way about myself that I just didn’t like. He would say things that made me question myself or made me feel badly about myself. There would be times when I would be left feeling empty and sad. Most of the time I felt belittled in the relationship. And that caused me to keep my guard up and not open up about things because I didn’t want to say the wrong thing.

There were good things about the relationship which is why I stayed in the relationship for as long as I did. When it was good, it was good. We had fun together and when things were good, I really enjoyed the relationship. But at the end of the day I knew I wasn’t good enough. There were many days where I would find myself thinking that he didn’t love me, he just loved the idea of me.

So at the end of the day I just couldn’t bring myself to stay in a relationship with someone who I felt didn’t really value me as a person. I couldn’t be with someone who made me feel the way I felt about myself. I needed to let go and move on. When everything happened at the end of May and beginning of June, I was going through a lot in my personal life. I had to completely uproot my entire life. And instead of being there for me and supporting me (emotionally), he instead took that opportunity to make me feel even worse and quite literally kick me while I was down.

And it was at that time that we reached the turning point. I knew I could no longer be in that relationship and I owed it to myself to get out and move on with my life. And I did just that. I found a new apartment in a new city. I am able to move on and start over. I created the fresh start that I needed from everything that happened in the past six months. I can move forward with all the things that I want to do.

And that is the story of why my relationship ended. Thank you so much for stopping by! I hope this clears some things up for you. Please like this if you like posts like these. Comment below any requests or ideas you have for future content. Don’t forget to follow before you leave if you have not already and I hope to see you next time!

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