Hey guys! Welcome back. I am back with another post in my “Life Through My Eyes” series. Today’s post will probably be pretty short and straightforward because even though channeling my anger has been a huge part of my life, what I do do channel it isn’t really anything too surprising or complicated. But I still wanted to share it because it may help someone out there who is struggling and just isn’t sure what to do with the anger they have in their hearts. So today I am going to share a little piece of my life and how I handle the moments when I get angry. But before we get into this I do want to remind you that this is extremely personal and I am not in any way saying everyone should do this. This is just what works for me, so I figured it was worth sharing.
I have dealt with anger for a really long time and there are so many different things I have been angry about. There are also a few different people that I have been angry at, including myself. So I can’t say for certain that there is one overarching thing that I am mad about, but just that I have struggled with anger since my teenage years. I have carried a heavy burden of things that have happened in the past and because I have had such a difficult time working through those things and letting them go, I have struggled with being angry and bitter and holding resentment in my heart. It has caused me to go through severe episodes of depression. So it took quite a few years for me to come to terms with the fact that I was angry and needed to find a way to let go.
Nine months ago I started therapy. I have gone to therapy in the past, but never for an extensive period of time. I had never committed to going more than just a couple of times. But I started therapy for real once I got out of college and decided it was time for me to start working through the things I was going through and the things I had gone through. Therapy has helped me out a great deal because not only did I come to terms with the fact that I was holding anger and resentment in my heart, but I was also able to find the things I was truly angry about and find ways to work through those negative feelings. It hasn’t been an easy process, but it has given me some tools and ideas to help me work through, so overall it’s been extremely rewarding.
In therapy we talked about how I needed to learn how to channel my anger. Whenever I feel angry I need to have something that I can turn to that will help take my mind off of my anger and the negative thoughts and feelings I have. We talked about ways that channeling my anger could help me and it could also help me use my creative side to be more productive than just sitting and being upset about things I have no control over. One of the things that I have always really loved, but have fallen out of in recent years is painting. Painting is one of my favorite things to do, but I never really got to do it those last couple of years in college. So now that I have more free time I can focus on that, and whenever anger or resentment starts to come up, I sit down and paint whatever I am working on at that time.
I told you it was simple. But sometimes it’s the simple things that help us the most. I have also really enjoyed doing the Bible Study podcast with you guys. That helps more than you know. But painting is definitely something I do most often because it doesn’t require communication or any interaction with other people. It’s just me focusing and concentrating on what is in front of me and I have found that has helped me the most. So I continue to turn to that whenever I need to. Honestly I just love creating and any kind of outlet that allows me to do that I really love. Writing has gotten me through some of my worst days and it will always be something I hold near and dear to my heart. I just love that I have a creative side and it helps me in many different aspects of life.
Thank you so much for stopping by! I hope you enjoyed this. Please like it if you did. Let us know in the comments what you do when you need to calm down and relax. Don’t forget to follow before you leave if you have not already and I hope to see you next time!
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